A few months ago I was challenged to write down my ‘Why’ statement. If you’ve never had to do this before, it can be extremely difficult. Your ‘Why’ statement is your purpose. It’s what drives you and motivates you to do what you do. Your ‘Why’ is a statement that summarizes what you care about, your values and the contribution you bring to the world around you.
Well, I’m a wife and a mom.
And…I…uh..care about my family.
And…um…raising them to love the Lord?
And …being a light to others.
I’m telling you, it is not an easy task. It requires a lot of reflection and soul-searching to be able to nail down your purpose.
As a conservative Christian female, I felt my purpose was to grow up, get married and raise a family. Mission accomplished.
During my teenage years, I developed a lot of insecurities, so my self-confidence has never been very high. I’ve always been my own worst critic, often making fun of myself before someone else could do it for me. I’ve been let down, even ostracized by people I thought were my friends. I’ve been made fun of, pushed around, and verbally abused by people I allowed close to me.
I discovered happiness the year my husband came into my life. He played a huge part in God’s plan for bringing me out of my “pit of despair” and he treated me like I was someone special. My husband filled a huge hole in my life, but my insecurities, lack of self-confidence, and fear of rejection were still hiding within me. I’ve ignored them pretty well, but they have a tendency to come out and torment me every now and then.
A year ago, I started a new journey and I discovered I don’t have to be content with myself. I can change…just like that. So, I did. I made a decision. I decided to believe in myself. I chose to stop listening to my insecurities and start listening to what God has been telling me from Day 1.
“You are chosen. You are special. And because you are a part of Me, you have true potential to be great.”
So my own personal journey sort of became my “why”.
I’m done with my self-confidence issues. I’m tired of selling myself short. I don’t want to live my life afraid to talk to people.
This website became my public stand. I want to be louder, for my voice to resonate further than my own backyard. I want to be bolder, to let my convictions and beliefs inspire others. I want to use my past for good, to encourage others that are experiencing the difficult times and places I’ve already seen and been.
There are too many people I can’t reach with my hands, so I’m going to reach them with my words.”
I’m just another girl who spent her life looking in the mirror and feeling inadequate, ordinary and insecure. This is my journey, but it can be yours too.
This past year has been my awakening. If I don’t like the way I feel, I can change it. I’m not going to be held down by my fears and feelings of inadequacy and neither should you.
The greatest battle is fought in the mind.
And I’m totally winning.